adventure, alignment, announcement, authenticity

A Big, Bold, Brave and Slightly Terrifying Announcement

11133687_10152890231098473_328855266522384090_nI’ve always said I didn’t find burlesque, it found me. And in the same vein, I didn’t just create the Burlesque Experience, but in many ways, it has created me.

For nearly five years, four times a year,  a group of a dozen or so women have enlisted on their burlesque adventure, and Busted-Out the other side to never quite be the same. A team of leaders, mentors and teachers has risen from this, and gathered around to support and assist in magical ways. I’ve held countless workshops, helping women Unleash their Inner Bombshells. I’ve trained others to teach this same workshop, knowing that even just a two-hour taste can be a game-changer. The Alumni Community has grown into its own living, breathing entity, supporting, caring and creating with and for one another. A perfectly imperfect tribe of human beings with a thing for glitter and a heart for one another.

I have grown as a woman, as a business person, as a community leader. I have had some lows, but many more highs, in this wild, colorful, dramatic and always interesting celebration of femininity, support, passion and life. It’s been one of my life’s greatest honors and delights to do this work. And I have made so many of my dearest friends through it.

So the signs that maybe it was time to move on went ignored, for a while.

How do you walk away from something so alive, something that thrives with a heartbeat made up of over 200 alumni, and many more supporters, fans and friends?

I ignored the signs of burn-out, I ignored the still, strong voice inside of me that wanted me so badly to tune in. I continued to stretch, to grow, to push and pull, and spread myself too thin at times.

And  the time comes when one day your truth can no longer be ignored.

My truth, which had been trying to get my attention for many months with many signs, signals and situations, could no longer be ignored. But hell, it was worth a try. I found myself pretending. At times feeling so out of alignment with what I really wanted to do, and be, and say, and feel. ME… someone who teaches alignment and authenticity for a living was out of alignment and authenticity. Not all the time, mind you, but just enough to feel a certain low-grade crappiness almost all the time, under the surface, even infecting other areas.

When we are out of alignment in one area, other areas also suffer. Period.

I fell into a depression. I was burned out and empty. Getting out of bed was extremely difficult. i found myself taking three hour naps, falling deeper then into overwhelm and physical pain, triggered by overwhelm. I was numbing and escaping in as many ways as I could. Because to “walk away” seemed unthinkable. This work is so important. It has so much life in it, and joy, and purpose. I LOVE this community, and I always will, these women, their partners, families and the care and love we feel for one another has been my lifeline at times.

Yet, I was done. The time had come: I wanted to release the Burlesque Experience.

Many of you already know, but others may not, as of our next semester in January, The Burlesque Experience will be under new directorship as Sweet Darla Danger (Lisa Loving) moves into the role as I prepare it for sale. I know that her passionate and talented spirit will breathe new life and energy into B.E. She’s been an important part of the program since almost the very beginning. Our intention is that she become the new owner later in 2016. I would love to see that happen!

My heart wants to focus on other aspects of my business and my life, my relationships, my health, my writing, my private coaching practice and other programs I’m ready to create.

Ironically, my new program, Live Dangerously, kicks off September 14th, and what better way to lead a program that inspires acts of boldness and vulnerability, than to walk away from work that has become quite safe and comfortable and so rewarding in many ways, to practice my own leaping and lunging into a loosely-defined future. Because I have no choice. Life leads. I follow.

I’m learning the fine art of tuning in. I am no expert yet. But life keeps giving me opportunities to practice. To tune out the crowd, to turn down the noise, so that I can pay attention to my own Truth, my own desires and longings, so that I can follow my own drum beat. It’s exhilarating at times. Terrifying at other times. Mostly somewhere in the middle. But the Truth knows. It will not lead us astray.

This isn’t the first time I’ve made a painful decision, and I’m sure it won’t be my last, but I’ve learned to recognize and trust the Truth (eventually, after some hard core resisting, of course.)

The next few months will be ones of transition. I imagine some of it will bring tears, some stresses, some joys and exhilaration. On Friday November 20th, we are having a big Alumni Spectacular to officially celebrate  the last five years and the passing of the torch. I hope you will be there.

And I hope you’ll stick around to see what new creations come forth out of this transition. And hell, why not perhaps join me in surrendering to your own life’s Truth that has been trying, in subtle or not so subtle ways, to get your attention? We can Live Dangerously together.

While I transition, I have waves of fear, waves of sadness, waves of overwhelm. But even still, I trust this Truth. I know it’s what I need to do. It’s what’s next. No one ever said Truth would be easy. But Truth is right. Every time. That’s why they call it Truth.

And when you meet yours, you know.

3 Comments

  1. Love this Lisa. Spot on.

  2. Thank you Chauncey! Your love and support means so much to me.

  3. Lisa, I’m so proud of you and know that you will do and be amazing at whatever the future holds. Though the BE will not be the same without you, you are leaving it in very caring and capable hands so I know the future will be bright. Good luck and please do not let us lose contact because that would be heartbreaking.

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