“Nothing happens, and nothing happens, and then everything happens.”
– Fay Weldon
There’s a recent shifting, a new understanding in me that has basically turned my world on its head.
It’s challenged everything I thought about life, about change, about habits and healing. It has turned my business beliefs upside down, it’s shaken up my entire coaching practice and belief system, and yeah, it’s big.
And it’s so awesome. So liberating.
I feel an opening within me that has become bigger than me, I free-fall into it. I’m still not 100% sure how to integrate this new understanding into my business, and exactly how it will impact my life coaching practice, and my life in general. It is monumental.
I do know my work is becoming much richer with this new understanding, much more loving, and compassionate, and effective.
Wanna know what it is? It’s this:
Everything is perfect. There is nothing to fix.
Your path is your path. Your unfolding is yours. There is no reason to force yourself into changing. In fact, it won’t work, if you are forcing it.
Having built my business on helping people change, as you can imagine, this is a game-changer.
Lately, I wonder if much of the self-improvement culture we live in today isn’t a bunch of bullshit. By our relentless pursuit of being “better”, we can never be enough.
If I witnessed a flower bud, and said “Flower bud, you are perfect, just the way you are. Don’t change!” would I stop it from blooming, at its own natural time? NO. It was designed to bloom.
If I witnessed a flower bud, and said “Flower bud, open. Open now. You were meant to bloom. Work harder. Push. COME ON! Why are you still a bud?” would it open any faster? NO.
Yes, it was designed to bloom. But at its own perfect pace.
Just like us.
Is an unopened bud any less perfect than an flower in bloom?
There is no forcing evolution. Evolution will not be forced. Emergence cannot be rushed. Blooming happens when its meant to. Not a minute before. Not a minute after.
The problem with much of our self-improvement thinking is that we are spinning our wheels, spending so much time, energy and money trying to shape ourselves into better versions, new and improved, always, relentlessly trying to change. Wondering why we can’t change. Wondering why we can’t shake this habit or that dependency. Frustrated as hell that we can’t reach that same goal we’ve had for 20 years, or that we haven’t succeeded manifesting our deepest desires and are still not the people we want to be.
We are missing the point.
And we are missing the perfection available to us in the present moment.
Am I saying don’t try? Of course not. Your desire, your intention, your trying is how you will get there, when the time is right, after all, but we also need to take into account the natural, organic ways we shift, when it’s time to shift.
We change when it’s time to change.
A caterpillar when it cocoons does not weave its humble abode around itself to cozily sprout wings and emerge all butterfly-beautiful, oooh! No. It’s a much uglier process than that.
The caterpillar first must deconstruct, actually deconstituting itself into black liquid. Caterpillar soup. From those cells, something new begins to take shape. But not without becoming complete mush before then. And here’s something new that I just learned… in that black soup process, the old cells fight the new cells.
While the new cells struggle and work to become butterfly, what is old, familiar, outdated is still struggling for survival. Can you relate?
When making the changes you want in your life, there will likely be struggle. It won’t be easy. Sometimes you will be fighting for your life. I’m not saying don’t fight, don’t work, don’t try.
I’m saying trust the process. Trust your own evolution.
I also know that you can’t crack open a cocoon anytime you want to set the butterfly free. I’ve learned the hard way, when I was 10. It was devastating and I felt like crap, I had destroyed the butterfly before it was even ready to be born, by trying to rush its perfect process.
So this is the great paradox… when you want to change, work at it. But know that if it’s not time for change, it won’t work.
Everything is perfect. Nothing needs fixing.
When it’s your time to let go, you will let go.
When it’s time to release old habits, you will be able to release them.
When it’s your time to make painful decisions, you’ll bravely make those decisions (not without being scared, don’t get me wrong. Bravery and fear are by no means exclusive of one another.)
When it’s time to leap, you will leap.
When it’s time to know, you will know.
When it’s time to crack out of your shell, you will fight for your life to break free.
And when it’s time to bloom, you will bloom.
Applying this level of acceptance and trust to my life and to the lives of those I care for and work with has been challenging at times.
We want what we want, and we want it now.
But luckily, becoming this new version of who I am brings with it the capacity to accept and trust life, on life’s terms, and I know, when it’s time… it’s time.
“The day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
– Anais Nin